Beginning of an End

More than a decade, that much time you see people come and go. That unreliable yet unmistakable truth that for all the reasons why it felt so lonely despite of - is because of seeking that gratifying lie we so called validation. Nothing felt so assuring and satisfying in fulfilling what we seek to hear.

Then it will all crash down. Not to trim thw outgrowth, but to end up in a realization that most of the shit needs to be uprooted and should not have been planted in the beginning.

We loose our sense of self respect, a great deal of dignity we thought rewarding when we give it away as an "offer". The risks are high, but who can judge a functioning adult in making that decision? Some shit hole I guess, and I participated to its journey. Damn me right?

Promises, Sacrifice, Devotion, blah blah blah. What are those words if they dont mean anything to a recepient? Ding3x, it is time to be realistic.

Always have REQUIREMENTS and not needs. Carnal fixes are better felt and appreciated when spent with an equally reciprocal soul.

All is worth it, to come into a realization. That a gesture should not be mistaken for anything close to an actual relationship. NOT WORTH IT.

It is a shame in all focal points.

Like this Redhorse, appreciation of value happens when what is holding it comes into a breaking point. The stregnth of the material is dependent on the amount of stress and mass it carries at any given rate or temperature.